TRANsition

My tits are so sore today that every time I bump them I feel like I'm going to scream...I hear it gets worse from here.  Oh well, at least they're growing.

I've noticed that the hair on my legs doesn't grow as fast either and the texture seems to be changing.  It's not a HUGE change in growth, but it's enough that I know I didn't get screwed over and stuck with Mexican Pez or whatever!!

So...In pretty much exactly 45 hours I will be in Memphis and FINALLY get to be in 24 hour girl mode.  I love my job, and my family...but it can be pretty anxiety inducing to be called "Ryan" all the time.  I understand that my "kids" are too young to try and explain the circumstances to so I had no problems with the conditions of my contract ["Laet'li" does not exist around the children]...I'm starting to realize that I completely underestimated the staggering amount of time I would have to be ...a boy!!  This, coupled witht the fact that my fiance and I ended a three year relationship less than a month ago...makes for a very stressed out and unmotivated Laet'li.  My work has suffered, school has suffered, and even my art took a hit or two...but I guess that's to be expected in my situation.

This weekend is much needed, and will be used to its full therapeutic benefit!!  I can't wait to see my Sister and all of my friends [and lovers haha] and maybe I'll get lucky and get to see Moms*!! 

Look out ladies...here she comes!!

♥ ♥


 



*I will talk about two different moms in this blog...Bio is my biological mother who I bitched about in my other blog.  She told me I'd never be her daughter and so Laet'li was left motherless.  Moms is the mother of my best friend/sister Khalifa.  Before even meeting me she made it very clear I was now one of her children, and has done more for me since than most people have done in my lifetime.